so ..there she go ..just another issue to give me a hard feeling,
she dont know that when she is dozing off to sleep..
i am worry and wonder and being hurt at the same time,,

but is ok, as i promised her i will put her heart first amongst everythig..
even being totally misunderstood by her..thought she dunno the truth that why I DID SO
sien.. she really is not going to be there time with me...

Hurt

yOU NVR ASK HOW I FEEL
U ARE NOT SINCERE IN KNOWING..
ALL IN UR MIND IS JUST U!!!
i am NOTHING IN UR EYE!!!
SAME LIKE EVEYRONE
I AM JUST A DISTURBANCE TO U !!!
FUCK OFF !!!!

Never

Never once i am permited to be angry
Never once i am permited to be emo
Never once i have the right to do anything
Never once i am being trusted
Never once i am being companied
Never once i feel like i am myself...

I should just remain hidden..
My unhappy is nothing but in concern of ppl surrounding me
My unhappy, my believe is nothing but just a crap for ppl around me
I am always the one.. the one that is full of rubbish ...

The real me is not valuable at all..

Respect

Sometimes i wonder when will i get sufficient respected i needed..
Even her sometimes i feel no respect at all..
i wan to gain it back..quick and fast... i am going to become nothing if this goes on..

It Should Be Stop

Toleration of thing is happening is worning me off,
I just wan us to stop wondering and finding out what is the other mistake,
Mistake lead to argument, No mistake end up in doubt..
What is the point, What is the benefits of trying so hard to find out something
Finding it out from me..someone u claim to love me the best...
Onli prove how much i make u doubt about me..
I am feeling very awful..
Didnt u know u just destroy all the dignity i have for myself..
Just to fulfill a little doubt of yours?
Didnt you know i broke my own principle just to let u have a single smile..
But i just dont know why my principle isnt enough to make u feel like getting one...

Why am i so cheap...